Alexis Rayne | Exister

      I have struggled from the time I was in elementary school with my relationship with food. I tried Paleo, Keto, and Whole 30 before I was 15. I would try to go vegan, vegetarian, remove dairy, take away sugars, skip meals, and end up bingeing on everything that I had been trying to avoid. By sixteen, I had developed body dysmorphia and anorexia, eating hardly 200 calories a day.      Today, I am eating a full, fried chicken breast with bacon, fries, a tiny orange, and a brookie for lunch. There is no one over my shoulder, pressuring me. There is no one telling me I have to eat. And these are left overs that I could just throw away. But instead, I'm doing a tiny happy dance at my work desk as I eat the orange.      So how exactly did I go from not eating to happily consuming some of my old fear foods? 1. Trade restrictions for feelings     This one was probably one of my easiest. I cut out all of the restrictions and ...

    This specific thing is something that was extremely difficult for me. I liked to place my worth in other people and let them decide it for me, never truly giving myself the love and attention that I deserve. Even still, I allow people to treat me less than I'm worth at times. I have come to the point though, when I start to just get to the point of exhaustion, I leave.   I'm practicing this today. I try to practice this a lot of days, but today is important.      What makes this part of life difficult is not knowing your worth in the first place. How exactly do you know your worth though? How do you discover the worth of something with no price tag or label? 1. Decide who you want to be     Okay, this one is a little confusing but must absolutely be the first step. It doesn't mean your final occupation, location, or anything of that sort. It's literally who you want to be on the inside and outside.       I decided that...

Hello again!       I believe that this will be my first blog that is truly helpful in the direction of growth. From what I've learned about myself, I must first go back and acknowledge what has happened in order to cause my insecurities and lack of confidence before I can grow away from them.       Some of the occurrences I still do not prefer to talk about unless it is with a close friend, but others I think are more than okay to share.      Honestly, I had a fairly good and fortunate home life. My parents stayed together, I had a mostly enjoyable older brother, and cousins and grandparents were always close. Although certain things in my home life could have contributed to some of my insecurities, I cannot blame them on my home.     I believe the issues really started with school. I was a little chubbier than the other kids. I was taller than most of the boys and all of the girls. Looking back at pictures, I was not...

      First, allow me to introduce myself. It might answer some of your questions. My name is Alexis Rayne and I am choosing to label myself as an exister.  At seventeen, I have decided that I have no clue what to do with my life, parts of a college degree, and a nearly full time job. I am a high school senior, a worker, and that is the base definition of myself.      Upon understanding this knowledge, I decided that it was simply not enough. I am a child living an adults life and that is simply unacceptable.  I've spent the past few weeks deleting YouTube videos, trying to start new things, and constantly looking for a new addition that allowed me to feel like a kid again with minimal sacrifices. Finally, I began messaging small businesses, correcting my social media, and concluding a path for myself to take.      I've decided to become an influencer. Not of brands or products specifically, nor of any specific niche. I want to be ...