Alexis Rayne | Exister

      From those blessed to the easiest, silver spoon lives to those struggling with severe problems, we all have something to heal from. As difficult as starting the healing process may be, a lot of times staying on that process is even harder. Healing mentally and emotionally are the same as healing physically, it takes rest, a little abnormal exercise, and there are a lot of bad days still in there. To add some support and guidance to your amazing journey of healing, here are some of the things that really helped me along my journey along with my story.     I was a extremely toxic person and sometimes I still am. I would ruin peoples days just because of my mood, I was always upset, and I chose horrible friends. I put myself in relationships that were abusive, toxic, and sometimes just wrong. Even worse, I gave myself no recovery time. If things ended with a toxic boy, there would be another one in just a few days. I developed eating disorders, horrible ...

      As much as we don't want to admit it, there's always that one person that you think about no matter how long it's been. There's the risky text that you want to send, the profile that you lowkey want to stalk, and the hope that person thinks about you too. Well, to answer all of your lingering questions, here's my story and advice on such matters.  1. Check in With Your Mental Health          Have you healed from the situation that you were in with that person? Are you strong enough for them to walk away from you or shut you down at the first attempt? Even more important, are you strong enough to leave at the first sign that this reconnection isn't good?  My story...      Very recently I reconnected with an old friend who once had the opportunity to become more. There were a lot of circumstances the last time we spoke that simply didn't allow for us to continue as friends, let alone more that friends. We spoke ov...

     Honestly? I absolutely love my life. Almost everyday of it I do my best to enjoy to the fullest. I loveeee how I'm living currently. Do I still have some toxic traits and habits that bring me down? Hell yea! Everyone does! But regardless, life is amazing.      This is recent though! I used to dread getting up in the morning. I used to groan about work and I complained about school every day. I grew to love and enjoy my life and it took some serious sacrifices. I had to let go of a guy who I thought I wanted to marry, I had to stop taking a medicine that I'd been on for months, and I had to make some crazy life changes.      Today, I'm writing this blog to hopefully guide you into loving your life as well, but be prepared to make some sacrifices along the way. 1. Find your priorities      Somethings are worth our effort, energy, and stress and others just aren't. Growing up, I was always told that school is your number one ...

      I have struggled from the time I was in elementary school with my relationship with food. I tried Paleo, Keto, and Whole 30 before I was 15. I would try to go vegan, vegetarian, remove dairy, take away sugars, skip meals, and end up bingeing on everything that I had been trying to avoid. By sixteen, I had developed body dysmorphia and anorexia, eating hardly 200 calories a day.      Today, I am eating a full, fried chicken breast with bacon, fries, a tiny orange, and a brookie for lunch. There is no one over my shoulder, pressuring me. There is no one telling me I have to eat. And these are left overs that I could just throw away. But instead, I'm doing a tiny happy dance at my work desk as I eat the orange.      So how exactly did I go from not eating to happily consuming some of my old fear foods? 1. Trade restrictions for feelings     This one was probably one of my easiest. I cut out all of the restrictions and ...

    This specific thing is something that was extremely difficult for me. I liked to place my worth in other people and let them decide it for me, never truly giving myself the love and attention that I deserve. Even still, I allow people to treat me less than I'm worth at times. I have come to the point though, when I start to just get to the point of exhaustion, I leave.   I'm practicing this today. I try to practice this a lot of days, but today is important.      What makes this part of life difficult is not knowing your worth in the first place. How exactly do you know your worth though? How do you discover the worth of something with no price tag or label? 1. Decide who you want to be     Okay, this one is a little confusing but must absolutely be the first step. It doesn't mean your final occupation, location, or anything of that sort. It's literally who you want to be on the inside and outside.       I decided that...

Hello again!       I believe that this will be my first blog that is truly helpful in the direction of growth. From what I've learned about myself, I must first go back and acknowledge what has happened in order to cause my insecurities and lack of confidence before I can grow away from them.       Some of the occurrences I still do not prefer to talk about unless it is with a close friend, but others I think are more than okay to share.      Honestly, I had a fairly good and fortunate home life. My parents stayed together, I had a mostly enjoyable older brother, and cousins and grandparents were always close. Although certain things in my home life could have contributed to some of my insecurities, I cannot blame them on my home.     I believe the issues really started with school. I was a little chubbier than the other kids. I was taller than most of the boys and all of the girls. Looking back at pictures, I was not...